## : Monday, May 30, 2005. 
CoOl~tats wad me n zul have been sayin after every thing we did, every sentence we said today. nothing beats workin wif her. YeAh! haha.. time passes so quickly today. n we hit e sales. yuki must b damn happy la.. some jap lady jus came n grabbed $320 of Shaklee products. her sales r like e all-time high. no wonder she kept rushing me to print e sales report -_-" anyway, back to work today. some handsome guy came n bought 120+ worth of milk bottles n baby stuff. wonder how many babies he have.. tats like SO much. then i was super HIGH today. on shania twain's music. me n zul were cashiering while singing n practically we almost danced! tats like WOW. i've nv felt tat fer so long since sch started! YAY! tml gt no sch. if not i wont b like typin in e wee hrs of e nite.. i wud b either slpin or rushin hw. LOL. anywayz. i was laffing like mad in e taxi la. till after zul gt off e taxi driver asked me not to laff too much. dotz! wads his PrObLEm? zul said he was jealous. cos i was so happy. e thing was, when me, cynthia n zul were going to change e pass zul fell. her position was so funny la. she was still holding on to cynthia's groceries n her bag. now my turn to laff at her. LOL. i fell nearly face flat tat time (heng they nv witness, although lotsa tourists stared hard at me), but nows her turn, oppo situation frm me. poor cynthia. her butter cookies mus haf been squashed pretty bad. together wif her dove hair conditioner. CONDITIONED BUTTER COOKIES. tats wad i call it. =P poor cynthia. whenever she hangs out wif us there is bound to be trouble. eh. not wif me, but wif zul. LOL.
heran aku!! i got to go to acjc on wed!! 9.30 lehz. damn.. i know its so prestigious n everything.. but its so early. n hello, i live in e east area.. bleahz. n e thing is tat i m workin frm 5-12am on tues.. then i have to rush to e chalet straight after tat.. next day still gotta go acjc.. n i will b so lonely.. zul's bf said tat it is at bukit timah. aww man..but i cant possibly miss e chalet rite? its like everyone's expecting me to go.. argh.. pulls my hair out..
next thing!! thanks to e show tat mr tan let us view 'super sized me' i've learnt sumthing!! if u can live wif sumthing fer 3 days, u can put up wif it 4vea. LOL. tats wad i did. on dieting. i made it! my third day nt eating dinner. n like having only a meal a day. YEAH! simply cool~ its all in e mentality. i know i can do it n i can! hurray~ food can lure me no more. nt even today, when zul tempted me by eating her wanton mee near e counter. in e end she forgotten all abt it n left it there. -_-" poor shidah has to help her clean e mess.. if not sure get scolding frm chua pek kim.
WORKIN'S DAMN COOL! SIMPLY LUV IT! SCH'S OUT WORKIN'S IN! HURRAY!!
## : 1:35 AM.
## : Friday, May 27, 2005.
kkz.. its been a damn long time since i updated. n i m taking e chance to update now.. its like e end of sch! YEAH! but e start of work. (a slightly less enthusiastic yeah!) i jus wanna take this time to reflect on things i shud have done this term but have not done.. things tat i cud have prevented but did not. things tat i have regretted doing. n of cos to set my goals fer next term. here goes.
THINGS I SHUD HAVE DONE:
1) watch The Interpreter starring Nicole Kidman! how cud i miss tat?! argh..
2) focus more on my work. yes. earnin $ is impt but i shud not get all gaga over working.. =(
3) shud NV haf been complacent abt econs. jus becos i was being praised fer my first BE insights.
4) SHUD not neglect any subjects!! fer a period i spent my entire life on econs i shud say.. then when i started flunkin my test i gave up econs altogether n went fer other sub tat i once neglected.
5) chem!!! i cannot slp in chem tut anymore!! every chem tut i nv fail to slp. most of e time i will jus slp thru e entire lesson!! tats bad!! must improve on my concentration level.
6) slp early!! fer e last term i have been slping like at e earliest 2am. tats bad. obesity is linked to lack of slp!! no wonder i m getting fatter nowadays! sobx. i needa go fer liposuction
7) eat healthy no matter how happy or sad i m. as i was discussing wif Zuliani in Guardian last sunday i realised i tend to eat a lot when i m happy n carefree.. its like a chain reaction thingy.. if i eat a lot when i m happy, i will put on weight.. when i put on weight i will b sad n hence lose weight. when i lose weight i will b happy n start eating again! cant expect me to b sad 4eva jus cos of losing weight rite? so.. i must start eating healthy like wad Yati advised me.
8) practise vball! i cannot let grandpa Lee suan me anymore!! stop letting me be his target
9) practise how to cope in exam situations cos i tend to panic. time management! yes ms tan i do get ur advice.
10) revise work constantly.. like DUH!
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GOALS TARGETTED:
1) mr tan gave us this target fer common test n promos thingy n ask us to it fill up
here's wad i wrote which seems unrealistic now:
ECONS -> B
BIO -> A
GP -> A
MATH -> A
CHEM -> C
get y i said it was unrealistic? today ms chan said tat e bio paper was tough.. n she said tat it wud already be very gd if u get a C or D.. n tat even if u read n revise u'd may/may not pass.. n i still put A? like duh someone's being far too ambitious here.. B fer econs? HAHA! tat is if i can cope wif exam stress first. flunked BOTH my econs test like crazy. getting a B? tats absurd.
BUT HEY! its PAYBACK time. whether i did well in term 2 or not.. here comes term 3. put past glories and worries aside. i m gonna shine this time rnd. Freak In Action aka FIA! lol. i must cheong hard at econs! cannot disappoint triplet one anymore! esp since she is leaving.. sobx.
2) kkz. i jus wanna do my best in everything. primary goal- not to slack but continue mugging
3) have fun laffing my stomach off wif frens
4) next term's e ms tan's leaving ms wee's cuming term. must cope wif tat.. ( its gonna be so freakin diff). besidez tat, mr tan is leaving too.. double SOBX!!
5) as fer this hols, there is so much stuff i m involved in.. ushering fer choir's concert..going to e world bank seminar thingy.. going back fer vball in e 3rd n 4th week.. going back fer extra lessons in e 1st n 2nd week.. n of cos working is gonna take up e bulk of my time.. same goes fer mugging for e common test.. tats where time management comes in. i must aim to achieve!!
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tats all ppl. tired of typin. sorry fer makin u all wait fer this entry..
## : 8:40 PM.
## : Tuesday, May 24, 2005.
=) after such a long period i m finally blogging~ peeps say YEAH! lolx. actually i even thot of deleting my blog.. cos i dun update much anywayz. kk. jus to update wads in n wads out in my daily life.. i'm fine actually.. i'm busy but i like it. i stay up late into e nite but i like it. so.. heh heh.. pretty pleased wif my current lifestyle. i go to sch n laugh till peng, i come back home cheong till peng. in e end i still peng. wad crap. ppl have been persuading me to drop my job. but i doubt i will anyway. its nice working. n as i told reagan, my fellow classmate during Taf today, mayb its like a strategy.. a workin strategy.. instead of keeping urself idle at home, y not work n earn $ to support urself, given more time to slack one wud probably not cherish time as much as a person wif time constraint.. so ya.. tats it.. its all abt me wanting to work cos i cherish e fun times i've had there, n always will. anywayz. sch work has been ok fer me.. except econs. for no reason or e other.. but fret not, i will, n let me repeat I WILL cheong fer college test.. (ps. zixuan-- cartel!!! we MUST redeem our title!!) LOLX
## : 8:25 PM.
## : Thursday, May 05, 2005.
i wanna stop believing. i wanna stop all these wishful thinkin tat i m gd at econs cos i'm not as gd. i totally screwed up econs. panicked again. ms tan asked me y i wrote so little at e end. i dun have an ans. y? i keep asking. my.. it is rhetorical. i ain't tat gd at econs after all. y do i keep clingin on? y do i ever want to be an econs freak? life keeps moving but these qns will always remain. stuck there without an ans to it. like how ppl qns abt the creation of the world. ppl keep telling me to stop work. i know i haf to one day. but m i escaping reality? mayb i wanna jus detach myself frm schwork once in a while. my strength- its failing me. nv have i had to slp at 2+ everyday. not even during e Os days. things were jus so diff. i wanna gif up. i'm tired of all these striving and getting nowhere.. i'm tired of having to constantly having to meet up to my expectations. i'm tired to keep believing tat i can and end up failing. falling down a bottomless pit. demoralised. lost my breath. gdbye..
## : 8:12 PM.
## : Sunday, May 01, 2005.
kk.. i realised my blog's been abandoned.. by me and everybody else. cos i dun or hardly blog.. n no one reads it. i symphatise wif u blog. these days been pretty busy. i have to work, cheong hw, prepare fer e canoeing thingy, vball, n e world bank seminar thingy's been bugging my mind too. then jus e other day i saw this kitty.. which was meowing away cos it was stuck in e sch's fence. so i brought it back home. to e dismay of my family members hu keep complainin esp my sis cos e kitty was making a whole lot of fuss with its constant high pitched screeching.. in e end we had to set it free.. its jus a few week old.. ya know? haven opened its eyes yet.. kk.. off to work at e airport. tats how busy i m.. tarz folks~
## : 4:10 PM.
## : Friday, April 15, 2005.
finally i m back to blogging.. these week was one nice week.. but a very cham week.. cos i incurred dunno how long a sleep debt le.. imagine sleepin at 2+ n 3am everyday.. if not 1+ lahz.. but i chatted wif ms tan almost everyday la.. she's very nice.. n seriously rite, i didn't regret ponning e first half of speech day cos i stayed back for some econs make up tut which i went fer fun.. ms tan said i dun have to go cos i already know so much le.. then in e end after e lesson ended me, zixuan n melissa stayed back to tok to ms tan.. so shuang.. then i asked her abt her course in uni n stuff.. next time i shall follow her footsteps.. haha. major in econs.. she wanted to b a financial planner once too!! but very sad la.. cos she is trainee.. which means she will b leaving.. according to her rite.. ms wee our original econs teacher gave e class away to her lahz.. then she will b teaching e class after ms tan leaves.. so.. i m very sad.. i wan ms tan!! dun care arz.. since ms wee will b marking e BE insights fer my class rite.. i pian pian wanna write very impressive ones.. n e topic i m covering will only b covered in JC2.. which means i m supposed to know e thing like next yr.. hahaz.. but it is meant to show ms wee tat ms tan valuable lah.. i dun wan ms wee.. n e thing is tat i dunno how come so many teachers r starting to know my name le.. miss chan started calling me le.. then adrian tan keeps asking me for my views in gp tut la.. then ms tan keeps asking me whether i understand or not.. n ms wee in her lectures keep staring at me.. expecting me to nod my head to show tat i understood.. do i look tat gong? oh ya.. speech day wasn't worth me rushing to sch in a cab la.. seriously it wasn't tat interesting as i thot it wud be.. then miss woon saw me after tat.. then gave me her pissed off fierce look la.. cos i didn't attend.. she didn't even inform me anything abt e speech day lorz.. oh ya.. THANKZ YICHEN FOR UR ROSE =P i appreciate it =) i saw eunice olsen.. actually can shake her hand de lorz.. cos i m a prize winner mahz.. but then she waved to me when she was on her way back.. dunno y she waved though.. but when i attempted to wave back i almost dropped e things i m carrying lorz.. so embarrassing.. then zheng kept patting my back.. hahaz.. cos chen told him i got
6 dist ma.. then he said i bu shi ren.. ok.. tat's all.. i shall blog next time..
## : 12:20 PM.
## : Monday, April 11, 2005.
after such a long break frm my blog i decided to blog something again.. i feel very very weary.. to e point tat i hav no energy to even eat.. today e econs teacher praised me fer my neat work.. n its like there r so many stuff to do within this month.. so many tut.. so many projects.. n ya.. i m officially in volleyball.. Mr Lee jus let me enter without qns.. so well.. being a perfectionist doesn't help me.. cos i wanna do everything wif my best effort.. in e end all my energy is drained.. n jus two days of e weekend doesn't help much to replenish all e sleep debts i have incurred.. does anyone know tat i sleep at 2am everyday? sometimes without afternoon naps? haiz.. i feel burdened..i haven do e gp essay yet.. n e econs BE thingy.. i really have no more energy to move on.. u know wad.. if there r any grammatical errors in this blog jus excuse me.. cos i m so exhausted.. oh ya.. congrats to tms band n choir.. fer getting gold. tarz. =(
## : 8:55 PM.
